The Best Friend's Contract

"We can't-we can't fall in love, Dimitri."

"Who said anything about Aidan falling in love with you?" He questions which causes me to frown, leaning back onto my seat. "You're in love with him, Kenna. I don't know about him... maybe, maybe, he's in love with you, too. How about just get this whole thing over with and make babies already, how does that sound?"

"Disgusting," I breathe out.

"Disgustingly good. Okay, when was the last time you had sex?" He asks, making me look down the hall-somehow afraid if someone might hear his voice in this quiet surrounding.

I groan, "How is that even an appropriate question, Dimitri? Why does that even have to do with anything?"

Ever since Noah and I broke up, I never got the chance to find another love. Call me lazy or even unbothered by the perks of being in love but truth be told, I was bored of it-not because of Noah but because of love, I had enough of the same shit all over again. Being with the same person for as long as a year and a half was quite the joy in my life. The first few months were heaven, endless love making and meaningful kisses but as time passed, meaningful kisses turned into quick kisses and endless love making turned into endless heart breaking.

Don't blame Noah in this one because I was the bitch in our relationship. I was the one who ruined it because I was scared of moving forward, even though he told me that he loved me with all of his heart and that he wanted to have a future with me but I crushed his heart and shattered his hopes.

We grew distant. I made us grew distant.

Work was in the way and I was somehow grateful because when things didn't work out between Noah and I, I blamed it all on my work-I blamed it all on my damn career for making my life too busy and less time with him. He understood me, he tried to make things better while I tried to make things worse.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

Maybe, we weren't meant to be. He was holding tightly onto our love while I was ready to let go. I felt sorry for leaving him like that, for breaking him apart and for purposely leaving our relationship behind but I couldn't deal with the amount of pressure in my life; I couldn't deal with someone caring over me.

Some guys might've walked away. Some guys might've even cheated but he didn't. He didn't stop texting me or saying how much he loved me when I didn't go home when I purposely stayed at the hospital and add night shifts into my week, but I didn't feel like I loved him back.

So, he was my last. The last guy I've ever been with and I guess that would answer Dimitri's dumb question.

"With Noah," I reply, receiving a quiet end on the other line which causes me to raise an eyebrow, "Are you still... there?"

"I'm here. I'm just shocked," He breathes out. "That was what... a year ago? Have you not been sexually active, Kenna? What have you been doing with your life?" He continues to ask.

"You can't just shove it at my face, Dimitri. I don't have time to fool around with strangers like you and Aidan... I have my own life where I fully dedicate myself to work. Besides, I don't do those kind of things-I don't just have sex with strangers." I roll my eyes, thinking of how I have spent my year without Noah; quite surprising how I never thought of having fun in that way.

He scoffs before chuckling, "Boring. You'll die as an old virgin,"

"I'm not a virgin,"

"Literally not a virgin. I'm just saying that you're a boring woman with no sex drive and when you start to feel these urges with Aidan, you're like a little noob." He replies.

"Noob? Excuse me? I am not a noob and I'm sure I still get the hang of it," I mutter. "Besides... how can it change much from where I left off?"

"Do you know 'The Pancake', 'Swivel and Grind', 'Reach for the Sky', 'Backdoor Planking', 'Kneel Together', 'Hyper-Connected Doggy'?" He stays quiet for a few seconds, "Well... don't answer that, you don't know any." He adds.

"Why are you telling me all of this? It's completely unnecessary!" I half-whispered and half-yelled as he continues to laugh, enjoying my discomfort to talk about this with him-especially with him.

"So, Kenna... as you can see, you've missed out a year of experience. What are you going to do when things go sexual with you and Aidan? Going to walk out the backdoor?" He says and I can imagine the smirk plastered on his face as he leans back on his seat.

"Oh, what? He's not going to be 'in

love' with me anymore when he finds out that don't know certain sex positions? How accurate of you," I reply after making sure that no one is walking down the hallway before sighing, "This conversation changed from sweet talking about Aidan to dirty talking about how it might go. You were supposed to help me figure this all out,"

"I am helping you. Look, women has this specialty when it comes to men-they're good at seducing us. So... since, you're a woman yourself, why not try seducing Aidan?" He asks. "What the hell?" I frown.

"No, don't get me wrong. If you want to know if he loves you or not, or he might even have a little bit of feelings towards you, why not try? If he thinks of you as his best friend, he might not bothered to look down at your body or even your lips but if he thinks of you differently and somewhat more, you can start noticing how his gaze will lower." He says, making me think about it deeply-this might be a terrible idea because why on earth would I simply seduce Aidan? I'd end up embarrassed if things go wrong and even if things do go right, I'd wake up feeling much more embarrassed.

"How does that prove anything? That's not love. That's called lust," I begin to sigh again, something I would do for more than just once if he keeps on giving me these bad ideas.

"Look-whatever, we'll talk about this later. I have to go, just... try to find some actual good ideas when I'm gone. Don't mess this up for me," I hang up the phone before he gets to say anything else as I run down the halls, following with one of my nurses to get down to the emergency room.

I step out of the shower to look at

myself in the mirror, my tan glowing underneath the light and my lips puckered with a bit hint of red from the heat. Staring at myself a little bit longer those compliments from other people calling me pretty and beautiful are somewhat true; I've been too unaware of my own beauty and for some reason, I'm starting to realise more.

I walk towards my walk-in closet as I go through my undergarments, wanting to look for something comfortable to sleep in for the night with a pair of oversized shirt and shorts-what keeps me most comfortable at night than wearing those tight or satin nighties. My heart stops at the sight of lingerie hidden near my other clothes, causing me to walk towards it and pull the contents out. I run my fingers over the material before eyeing the hot red colour, imagining myself in it; standing in the middle of the room, somehow also imagining Aidan to be laying on the bed as he holds a rose, eyeing my body with a smile.

I blink a few times, remembering back when I bought this lingerie; when I was with Noah but I never got the chance to use it or show it. I bought it for fun but I never really got to experience the fun with it when we were together.

Aidan hasn't gotten home yet from work and trying this lingerie for fun wouldn't cause me any harm; it's not like I'm going to walk around the house in this. I just want to stare at myself in the mirror and imagine myself in one of these different lingeries, just like Dimitri said if I ever want to seduce anyone, Aidan in particular.

After dropping the towel on the ground, I slip into the thin lingerie before gazing at myself in the mirror, watching how this lingerie define my legs to look longer than usual which would compliment my body shape perfectly. The colour compliments my tan, too which would be nice if it's ever come to something useful.