Chapter 39 Heart like ash
Lu Zhanxiu followed her secretly and found out her staying.
he worked in a blind school to handle with some simple things for life. Lu Zhanxiu was so upset to see the way Shen Xinyan like.
So he donated money to the Disability school, and just told the president to keep the secret, because he was afraid of Xinyan would run away after knowing it.
A week later like this, Lu Zhanxiu returned Jin zhou and asked someone to watch Xinyan, and he brought Xiaobao here.
Lu Zhanxiu told Xiaobao when they came to Jiang zhou.
“Xiaobao, wanna see mummy?”
“Daddy, you said mummy is traveling now ?”
“Daddy found mummy, and are you happy? Mummy is inside. You come to give her a hug, okay? Mummy will be happy!
“Really?” the little thing toughed his head. He was no sure, but he wanted to see, the real mum. Because grandma Qin showed him the photos of his mum every time. He saw them, but had no feeling with toughing it.
This night Shen Xinyan boiled water. She felt to put a pan on the gas burner, and read books beside it, the book for the blind certainly.
“Mummy!”
Shen Xinyan stopped, and how could there was sound of kid? Auditory hallucination?
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Shen Xinyan put down the book, stood up and she was astonished.
She heard the kid’s sound. It’s real. How come?
“Mummy, I’m Xiaobao. You don’t know me?”
Xiaobao? No, impossible. How could Xiaobao come here, and he already…
Thought of that, her tears came out.
Xiaobao looked at his mum crying, he ran to hug her. “Mummy! I miss you so much.”
In this way, Shen Xinyan knew there was a kid hugging her and calling her mummy!
She understood later, the kid was her son, Xiaobao.
“Xinyan, Xiaobao was not dead. Xu Yi gave him to me. I appreciate him. You see, god is willing to give us a chance to start. I do not want to give up you. Give me a chance to love you for the rest of my life.”
Shen Xinyan did not promise Lu Zhanxiu, because she could not face with the confession. The calamity of imprisonment for five years, separation for three years, there were so many changes between them.
Lu Zhanxiu knew he could not change her mind immediately, but he indeed was wrong.
“Xinyan, it’s okay you turn me down, as long as you let me accompany you. I won’t leave you and bother you. You let me know you l live well, and I will be satisfied with it. I am gonna let the kid be around you, and I don’t disturb you, as long as let me take care of you.”
“Lu Zhanxiu, why bother?’
“I am willing to do this. I understood to love a person is selfless.”
Her heart was moved after hearing his words, but…
Her heart was already dead like ash. She only want kid, as to him…
She dared not think anymore.
Shen Xinyan shook her head, squatted to touch the kid’s face.
“Lu Zhanxiu, please give me the kid. This is the only thing I ask for. Okay?”
“……”
Lu Zhanxiu stood still. His heart was aching without saying anything.