Chapter 25 Please Dont
It’s midnight already and my eyes are shining brightly like a flashlight. It seems sleep has forsaken me this night because no matter how I try to force myself, It’s still futile. Though, It’s not surprising since I have a man lying in my bed for the first time in my life. Rakel was lying as still as a log, making me wonder if he has fallen asleep. How can he sleep so comfortably while I’m in this state? It’s so not fair! I kept telling myself ‘it’s just sleeping together, nothing else Laney’ but no matter what, It doesn’t seem to work.
I rolled to my side for the hundredth time trying to find a comfortable position to sleep in, but it was an impossible task when Rakel was taking most of the space! And, I’m the kind of girl who likes a lot of space when I sleep that way, I can sleep in any position I want without any obstruction in my damn way!
As if that wasn’t enough, he rolled over to my side and flung his big arm over my body – trapping me within his arms. Gritting my teeth, I counted one to ten while taking a deep breath just to calm my anger, but nope, It’s not working! I was still fuming even after thirty minutes.
I forced my eyes close, and was already drifting off to sleep when I felt it. I mentally cursed and at the same time, panicking ‘Oh, God. Just what I’ve been dreading. This can’t be happening. At least not now!’
The familiar ache in my tummy caused my eyes to snap open. What should I do now? The last time I touched myself, Rakel warned me never to do that again, I wasn’t brave enough to tell him I can’t do without masturbating because it’s personal. I can’t tell that to a stranger, he will definitely find out about what happened to me years back. God, Why did this damn thing pick today of all days to start? Especially this night?
I decided to lay still for a while thinking the pain might pass after some time, though I know It’s not possible, there was a time when I had forced myself not to get any release, however, as time goes on, the pain doubled, I had to make it stop.
I gently took Rakel’s arm off me and moved to the edge of the bed, breathing hard. The next wave of pain had me gritting my teeth and gnawing on my lips to keep from crying out loud. The pain passed after a few minutes, but I know it was only a matter of time before another wave comes again. At times, it usually comes as a contraction, just like it’s doing now. Other times, I might feel the pain and quickly counter it by touching myself before the situation worsens.
As expected, another wave of pain hit me, this time greater than the other ones. My body became sensitive, I could feel my juice pouring out between my legs. I clamped my thighs tightly, gently rubbing the two against each other just so it could alleviate the ache I’m feeling down there, yet, it doesn’t seem to be working.
Knowing that werewolves have a sharp sense of smell, I decided to go lock myself in the bathroom to prevent Rakel from perceiving my arousal. The walk to the bathroom to the bathroom was slow, painful, and long. I began praying to all things holy so that Rakel won’t wake up soon. Even in my current state, I couldn’t help but wonder how deeply do werewolves sleep.
I finally arrived in the bathroom and quietly lock it behind me with a shaky hand. After that, I took off my shirt and sat on the cold tiled floor.
*
Hours passed, and I was writhing on the floor from pain, I couldn’t stop the whimpers that escaped from my mouth any longer.
I couldn’t obey Rakel’s request again because I was a mess, I wanted the pain gone! I couldn’t bear nor endure it anymore. Consequences be damned, It’s not like he’s going to kill me, I will face whatever punishment he has for me head-on.
A moan escaped my lips as I placed my shaky hands on my breasts, moulding them. Sparks went down my core as I pinch my nipples. Without wasting time, I trail my hand down to my core, gasping at how sensitive it was. Not only that, I was soaked. I don’t think I’ve ever been this wet before. My head fell back in ecstasy as I finally inserted two fingers inside me, then I began pumping my hand in and out.
I tried to hold in my moans and whimpers, but at that moment, I couldn’t care much about anything. All I wanted was to get a release then and there.
I pushed my fingers into the hilt, but it wasn’t enough, I wanted more! My movement became hurried, my breath quickened, and my legs quaked. Pleasure zinged through my body as I slide my second hand down my hot centre, flick my knobs softly, and rubbed on it.
My tummy tightened, I could feel my orgasm drawing near, causing me to widen my legs a bit more. I pumped my hand once… twice and climaxed with a scream. I fell to the floor, breathing hard.
I haven’t finished catching my breath when I heard a knock on the door, “Delaney?” Rakel called.
It’s as if someone poured a bucket of cold water on me, realizing my scream must have woken Rakel up. That means, he heard everything, he knows what I’ve been doing in here.
Getting up from the floor, I picked up my shirt and put it on just as the door busted open. Rakel stepped into the bathroom with narrowed eyes, I watched as his nose flared, ‘he’s smelling my arousal’ I thought.
I held my breath waiting for what he’d do next, not only that, but I couldn’t help but wonder if he could hear my pounding heart which was beating fiercely against my chest. The uncomfortable silence stretched, causing me to become a nervous mess.
No one needed to tell me that Rakel was furious, I could see the angry veins popping out of his forehead, he was continuously clenching his fist as if he was trying to hold on to the last restraint he held on his control. He took a step forward, while I moved three steps backward. “Please…” I swallowed the lumps in my throat while blinking the tears from my eyes, “please, don’t… Don’t hurt me, please.” I cried.
He glared at me for a while before turning on his heels and leaving my room. The tears fell freely now, I took off my shirt and stepped into the tub to shower. As the cold water fell on my body, I breathed in and out, trying to stop my tears from falling. There was no point in crying anymore or blaming my mom for dying on me or cursing at my stepdad, no need! I’ve accepted the fact that this is who I am now.
This is who I will always be, an addict. Shaking my head, I stepped out of the shower, padded to my room and heaved a sigh when I didn’t see Rakel in the room. I picked a new t-shirt from the wardrobe before going to lie on the bed.
It wasn’t hard falling asleep this time because of the exhaustion weighing down on me, both physically and mentally. At that moment, I was tired of life itself, I felt like dying. I have no reason to live if there’s only pain waiting for me in this life.
*
The next morning, I was awoken by an aroma of food, I could smell eggs, bacon, and coffee… I could almost taste it. My tummy growled loudly while I salivate at the smell.
“Open your eyes, Delaney, I know you’re awake.” I heard Rakel’s cold voice say.
My eyes snapped open at the voice, I momentarily forgot about the food and stared at him in fear. Rakel looked devilishly handsome this morning in a black shirt and pants. I guess he has already taken his bath this morning.
He ignored me, picked up the tray on the bedside table. He took a small portion of food in the spoon and silently asked me to open my mouth. I gaze at him in shock, wondering what he’s up to, I thought he was mad at me for disobeying his orders? Shouldn’t he be giving me my punishment?
“Open up, Delaney, I have somewhere I need to be at.” Oh, yeah, he’s still mad, just that he’s in control this time.
“You don’t have to feed me, I can do it myself…” I was about to take the tray from him when I realized that I couldn’t move my hands. I tried again, but it’s as if something was restraining my hands.
When I glanced up, I couldn’t help but gasp when I saw my hands handcuffed above me. I blinked, too stupefied to believe what I’m seeing. “Y–you didn’t… You can’t.” I stuttered.
Rakel pretended not to hear me and shoved the spoon into my mouth, “Eat, quickly.”
It’s as if I’m seeing Rakel for the first time, this side of him was so cold not the usual Rakel who would tease me nonstop.
I spat the food out of my mouth and shook my head, “Rakel stop this, you’re scaring me. Untie me right now… please.”
“So you can touch yourself again? You disobeyed me, Delaney, I asked you never to do that without my permission! Yet, you went on ahead all because I reminded you of him, isn’t it?” he spat.
I shook my head furiously, “N-no, you don’t understand Rakel, It’s not what you think.”
He flung the tray away causing me to flinch as it smashed to the wall “Then what is it! Why don’t you explain what I saw last night!” he growled.
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He chuckled, “You can’t even deny it right?”
I shook my head, “Rakel…”
“You will remain that way till I return home tonight and when I do, I’ll give you the punishment you deserve for disobeying me. This is just the beginning, Delaney.”
“Rakel please, you can’t do that, untie me… please.”
He snorted, leaving the room. He paused at the door “Call the guards if you need anything” and with that, he’s gone.
I became anxious, staring after him, “Rakel! Come back here Rakel! You can’t do this to me!” I yelled, struggling against the cuffs.
“Rakel!”