Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0478

As we chat, Ava's eyes keep going back to Rowan. You can see the love that is there. Despite everything he put her through she still managed to give him another chance.

Rowan's eyes, of course, keep drifting to his wife too. It's like he simply can't keep his eyes from her or his hand for that matter, given he keeps finding ways to touch her.

I know how cruel Rowan was to Ava in those three years of marriage to Gabriel. He treated her like she was nothing. Now though, she seems to be his whole world. His love for her openly shines. I never thought that he'd ever change towards her, but the evidence of his change and love is staring at me directly in the face.

*Something is bothering you," Ava whispers, pulling me from my thoughts.

I turn to her, my eyes searching her face. "Have you truly forgiven Rowan? How did you do it? How did you let go of the past?"

I just didn't get it and, if I am being honest, I am freaking scared of taking that step with Gabriel.

Her eyes shift to her husband, before the refocus back on me.

"I have forgiven him, and that's the easy part. The hard part is letting go and forgetting. I won't lie to you, Harper, it isn't easy. There isn't a magic potion that will make you forget what he did. Other days are harder than others, especially when those memories hit me and infiltrate my mind, making me question my decision to give him a chance."  Update first at NôvelDráma. Org.

I'm taken aback by what she just revealed. I never would have thought that there are times she would question her decision.

She takes a deep breath, and I can see her raw emotions. "But I love him. I tried flashing that love out and killing it. I tried moving on. I tried ignoring it. It still remained. Still fought to hold on.

Rowan has shown me that he has changed. It's in the way he has treated me and loved me since he realized it's me he wants. It's in the small and big ways he has proved to me, still proving to me, that he loves me. It's in how he looks at me, takes care of me and shows me that I'm the only woman in his heart.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

It's the in the way he has treasured and taken care of my heart since I gave it back to him. Those things are what keeps me fighting during times my memories threaten to drown me. He is right there with me when ghosts of our past show up to haunt me.

When the echoes of pain from the past show their ugly head. I look at him and seeing the love in his eyes pushes the darkness away. It hasn't been easy, and it will take time to completely get rid of it, but I know he is with me through every step. It's an uphill battle, but I know, and I'm sure of his heart and love. That's what makes everything worth it."

I lean back on my chair and just stare at the table cloth. Focusing on the sparkling gold fabric.

*Like I said, it isn't easy, and it won't be for you if you decide to give Gabriel a chance.... But ask yourself, do you want this second chance? Has Gabriel shown you his heart? Showed you that he has changed? Has he shown you he wants a future with you? Do you love him? If the answer to all of those questions is yes, then give him another chance. Love is about taking a risk. You'll dive deep and he'll catch you. When he does, you will realize just how worth it that risk was."

Everyone arrives, and the food is served, then next comes the speeches. During the entire time, my mind circles back to what Ava told me. It's time I make a decision.