Shall I remind you?
Alex collected his files again and checked about the latest changes he made overnight. His first and strong dream was to invent a game and now he is just a step away from creating a world out of it. The last step is the hardest one and that’s how he lost his temper with Clara when he couldn’t handle his stress. He knew that if he gets angry, he would be transforming into a new person and he even forgets whatever he spats in anger.
After explaining his team, he sighed in satisfaction. Everything is moving as per his plan but still, he couldn’t feel that thrill or happiness. He just wanted to throw everything and sit back at home. He never felt this way at least not when he is this busy.
“I am tired. I don’t want to do this” He voiced out confused as Edward sat beside him in his cabin.
“Everything is perfect. Even the sponsors are very happy with your changes in the project and he even promised to be with us for the second time too.” Edward couldn’t comprehend his frustration. Alex should be happy now but instead, he was exhausted and frustrated.
“The problem is not with this project. I… I” Alex mumbled and grabbed his hair out of frustration. He closed his eyes to calm down his nerves but ended up being restless.
“I don’t know what is happening to me?” Alex threw the files and started messing up his table, startling Edward. Alex never loses his cool ever. Seeing him like this is a new thing. Alex’s anger has always been harsh and mean. But Edward never witnessed him like this. He has always hurt the other person in his anger but has never been like this. Edward stood up shocked as Alex went out of control.
“Alex?” Edward gasped as he grabbed him to make him calm down.
“Ah” Alex screamed as he threw the paperweight also. Second, by the second, he became violent. Edward slapped him hard on his face to bring him back to his senses. Alex sat there shocked at his actions. He blinked to see what he had done to his cabin.
“What happened, Alex?” Edward asked, cupping his face. He is hell worried for his friend now.
“I miss her,” Alex replied instantly and closed his eyes. Maybe her nature is contagious and he too got annoyed with this little fight. He even vowed that he would never fight with her in his lifetime.
“Why should this small fight affect you guys this much?” Edward slapped again over his shoulder in anger.
“I don’t know what went wrong. But I want to see her now. I want to hug her. I want to” Alex’s words died when Edward closed his mouth.
“Go and get her back.” Edward gave him the keys with a broad smile.Property © NôvelDrama.Org.
“I will look after you here.” Edward showed him the backup files and pushed him out. Alex smiled at his friend and thanked the stars for getting such a buddy in his life. Edward has always been a supportive guy for Alex. He never left his side even though he had his commitments.
Alex sped up his bike as the air ruffled his hair to the backside, making him look more handsome. He thought the place was just an hour away. But every second of his trip felt eternal. Thanks to Edward who asks him to go right away. Because he can’t wait for even a second.
“I don’t want to drag this fight. But” Clara spoke after some silence in the swing.
“I want to laugh at your silly fight and loads of drama. Doll, chill up and change your mood” Alina is now fed up.
Clara wanted to share everything with Alina. It’s not a simple fight that she is seeing. There is much more to it. Clara doesn’t want to degrade her relationship with Alex to Alina. But also she wanted to share these with Alina.
“It’s not a simple fight” Clara pouted wondering where to start and what to say.
Before the sisters could talk about it more, a small whisper melted in the air making Clara’s heart stop for a second.
“Jaan” Alex called her again. Clara felt her neck hair straightened with his presence itself. She turned to her backside where he was standing with little tears in his eyes. It’s not her hallucinations now. His beard told of his sleepless nights for a week. His tired eyes showed his unhappy mornings.
Clara went blank and the next moment she found herself in his arms, hugging him tightly as if she feared to leave him alone. Feeling his warmth, she let out her tears flow down with no gap. Alina smiled seeing them together. She slapped her forehead seeing their kiddish fight and kiddish anger. She left the place leaving them alone to sort out their differences.
The hug longed more than expected as they didn’t want to leave their side.
“I am sorry” Alex mumbled in between his smile. Clara opens her eyes and slowly gets away from Alex’s side, wiping her tears. She looked at him with so much pain in her eyes. She is angry with herself for how she let her emotions rule over her self respect. She wanted to talk to him about everything but instead, she just hugged him being a weak being.
She started walking fast as Alex ran behind her to catch her.
“Jaan, please.” Alex grabbed her arms as she turned to his side with force. She pushed him again, wiping her tears.
“Please? For what?” She asked fiercely.
“Did you apologise to me? Can you tell me for what exactly you are sorry?” She asked, crossing her arms.
“Fine. I shouldn’t have gotten angry at you in front of Mira. I shouldn’t have spoken like that.” He added with a guilty face.
“That’s the problem, Alex. You never realised what is the actual problem behind my tears. It’s not that it was in front of Mira. It’s just you ” Alex gaped at Clara. He never thought that there could be another reason for her anger. And what does she mean by You? As far as he knew, he had made sure to make her happy and always tried to fulfil her wishes.
“I have never hurt you intentionally. I have never made fun of your work. I have never mocked you with a smile to make you get confused about my intentions. I have never taunted you in front of my friends. But yeah, I have just smiled in response whenever I was hurt” Clara emptied her heart, startling him. She has kept so much in her heart. He didn’t even blink once, unable to absorb her words.
“Jaan” Alex gaped at her but she was in no mood to look at his accusing stares.
“Shall I remind you of those words?” Clara asked.
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“What is bothering you?” Clara wanted to skip the question but she couldn’t as she saw his worried face.
“As if you would have helped me with it?” Alex taunted her, instantly closing his files harshly. He has no control over his words whenever he gets tense about anything. He wishes for someone to pour out his frustration and that person can never be more perfect than Clara. But he failed to notice the flash of pain in her face.
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“How can you girls cry for everything?” Alex asked with a smile, switching off the emotional movie. Clara wiped her tears instantly and didn’t like the way Alex tagged girls as weak creatures even though his intentions were not that.
*****
“Why are you even bothering to touch my things?” Alex screamed when he couldn’t find his hard disk.
“Why should I even touch it? It must be there where you have kept it” Clara replied, taking her white coat to get ready soon for her college.
“As if you even know that I have a hard disk” Alex replied with frustration but didn’t notice how she was gaping at him. His gestures and words just made her feel useless.
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Clara recalled every scene where she was hurt. But the problem is Alex had no slightest idea of it. She doesn’t want to point it all out and make him feel worthless. Even though he made her feel like a piece of trash, she can never give him that feeling. She knew what it feels like if we realise that we were not able to be the reason for their happiness.