disgusted
It’s been hours since he left home. I am totally exhausted and Mira was continuously blaming me for all the misfortunes of Alex’s life. Honestly, her words started affecting me as I took heavy steps to meet mom at least. Thanks to the stars Mira too left the place after that. There was huge drama here but mom didn’t come to even see that? That was unusual. Is she fine? As I neared her room, I heard the sound of water. Both Mother and Son are similar when it comes to emptying the water tank while bathing. That’s why she didn’t hear. I took my painkillers and gulped them with water.
As the pain reduces in my body, my mind recollected everything. I widened my eyes when I realized that I did let him go. I should have grabbed him, stopped him, and explained to him.
No no. Shit shit. I panicked as I searched for my purse and ran downstairs to take it. I took my mobile and unlocked it instantly to call him.
He believed her words. But if I tell him that it was not me, he would believe me. He would never ask for proof. Why did I even get hurt? Of course, my physical pain took a toll as I became an emotional fool.
Dialling his number for the fifth time, I smiled broadly as he took the call. I entered the balcony to talk to him and if he didn’t reply, I will explain everything to him and I know he will understand.
“Alex, listen. Please. Listen to me once before judging anything. I can’t bear your hatred for me. Please”I begged as tears rolled down my cheeks. This is not even like the argument we had as we knew that it would be fine after we sort it out. But now, if he loses trust, I will never be able to tell him my side of the story.
“Because of your one move, my peaceful life is gone” Mira’s voice startled me. I didn’t expect her to be with Alex. Is she trying to make this fight bigger? I don’t want to let her win this one at any cost.
“Give the phone to Alex,” I said, gritting my teeth. She is taking too much liberty in my life.
“I have never intended to separate you from Alex. But your simple move made all my loved ones question me about my character. Are you even feeling sorry for that?” her voice looked pitiful. I wanted to at least console her but right now it’s not my concern. I am not any Netha to forgive and only do good things. She should know that if she hurts me, I will hurt her three times more. Moreover, I didn’t even do anything. Why should I even feel sorry?
“What was my mistake?” she added as she broke into tears again. Can she stop this drama already?
“I said don’t answer to anyone. No one is important now. Keep the phone away” I heard Alex’s loud voice. Even though he is not around, I tremble with the intensity of his voice. Why does he have to be this much angry?
“Please, give the phone to Alex” I begged as I wanted to at least talk to him.Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.
“ok” I heard her reply as I waited for Alex to talk to me.
“Are you going to keep that phone away or not?” Alex’s sound was clearly dangerous now. I hung up the call before he could yell at me. I don’t want to talk to him with this temper.
I heard a loud gasp from behind. I saw mom. But she was sweating purposefully. She is not breathing at all. I panicked as I ran to her side instantly. What happened all of a sudden?
“W. h. y?” She was asking the same question again and again. I just couldn’t understand what she was asking about? Is she also accusing me of everything?
“Mom. Please what happened?” I asked, hoping a little that she won’t think of me like that ever.
“Cl. a ra” she called me again as her tears didnt stop anytime. No. It can’t be like this. I called Alex again to ask him to come here. Did he switch off his mobile phone as I was calling him? I felt so stupid to even think that he would be always there whenever I need him.
“Please, mom. Please. Don’t panic. What happened? Please tell me!” I asked her as I was crying continuously.
“You take some medicines, right? Whenever you get panic attacks?” I asked as I remember Dad sharing this with me one day. Though she doesn’t get panic attacks often now, she used to have those medicines in stock, always fearing the worst scenario.
“Why?” she asked again as she cupped my cheeks protectively as if she wanted to save me but couldn’t do so. She looked helpless.
“Is it yours?” finally she asked in one go holding something in her hand. What is she showing? I grabbed her hand as I saw those pills which I took just now.
Okay! It’s not going to be good anyways.
My tears threatened to burn my face as they fell aimlessly when she asked those questions. I knew that she guessed it right. I didn’t want her to find out like this. I wanted to tell everything to Alex first. But he is busy wiping the tears of those fake people.
“Why is it here?” She asked again. Damn, she is getting rigid. Her breathing was not coming back to normal. Should I tell her a lie? But she knew it already. What should I do?
“Mom, mom. Please. I am fine now. Please, mom. Look at me. We can talk about it. Please breathe out. Please.” I begged her but her intake of breath was more than before and she is not able to breathe out.
She tried to stabilize her breathing but all of a sudden she fell with a thud. I didn’t expect this for sure. Sweet beads covered my forehead as my senses went blank. I don’t know what I should do first. Alex’s phone is not reaching. Dad is out of town.
Before I could process the happenings, I stood before Alex who was shocked to see everything. Damn the timing. He also stood there emotionless. His eyes and face were stuck as he was looking at his mom. I wanted to grab him and shake him so that he comes back to his senses and lift mom to the hospital. But my body is too tired to even move from my place. I was sitting in the same position.
He seemed to be more shocked than expected. I exhale deeply but it seems like my blood pressure dropped because of continuous crying. My eyes blurred due to lack of sleep too. I could hear Alex’s sound far away. But he is near me only. Why does his sound come from too far? Okay, my ears are too blocked. I should take some sugar or chocolates, but my doctor instincts kicked in. But right now, I should help Alex to get mom to the hospital. I slowly stood up ignoring all things happening in my body and walked towards Alex.
After about a few minutes, he slowly looked at me as I wanted to explain to him about what happened.
“Alex” I called him slowly but froze to the spot when his eyes met mine. He is not mad. He is not hurt. He had no other expressions.
But he looked disgusted. Disgusted to see me.
Is he blaming me for his mom’s state? I stood there blankly. He lifted his mom and left the room instantly.
That’s the end of my patience level. He is not the right person to know about anything. He is not the right person to deserve my love. He can’t be that Alex whom I loved. He is now a clone of Alex whose functions are decided by Mira of course. I couldn’t move my legs or hand as it looked paralysed for some moments. My entire body shook with fear, anxiety, anger, hurt and whatnot.
End of the view.
“Doll, doll. Relax” Alina tried to console her while Clara started crying hysterically as she was explaining her turmoil. That was too much to bear. The pain seemed too fresh and unbearable. It’s as if it happened the previous day. She was shaking continuously the same as that day.
“Are you fine?” Alina made her drink water. Clara laid over her lap and closed her eyes to sleep. She doesn’t want to continue her story. She doesn’t want to tell how she felt when Alex asked her to leave? She doesn’t want to remember anything.
“Doll, what was that medicine for?” Alina asked as she could conclude already that Clara was not well that day and no one noticed that, not even Alex. Moreover, she knew that Clara left the camp on the same day. Where was she for two days? She reached Alex’s home after two days only. Did she meet any accident? But even so, there was no mark for such an accident. Numerous questions started attacking Alina’s head but she had no clue for anything.
“Painkillers and antibiotics for miscarriage” Clara replied absentmindedly as she slept instantly. Alina widened her eyes hearing that.